And so here I am again, putting my thoughts into words. At times they comfort me and give me peace. Yet there are times where they scare me. Especially when I step back and read the words, I think "do I really feel that way" "did I really write that". When you make the choice to put your feelings into words there is no denying them, as they stare at you with a fierceness. Sometimes one is so much better off just thinking the words, because you can hide your true feelings, its like having a secret with yourself. But truly are you better off keeping your feelings in, to perhaps have them stir? For me, I would rather write the words, but I know for some they would differ. I will say this tho, there have been many times that I did not want to write the words, because the validation would be to much to handle. So I keep them in my head in hopes my head does not burst. So far I have been lucky, my head is intact (unlike our Birdee). Which brings me to my first thought as I wrote this blog. Do I write a blog about my thoughts, or do I just keep it a secret between me, myself and I?
I just answered my question....
YES! nanan neener neen
ReplyDeleteNice blog Carol, I tend to keep the secrets in my head. I found that writing them down is scary sometimes. I try to change that.
ReplyDeleteDamn!!! I"ve been refreshing all morning! Congrats on first damn bebbi!!!!
ReplyDeleteI leave the 69 door wide open in Area 51, and none of your hos take it?!?!??!?
ReplyDelete*shakes pimp head in disappointment in your general direction*
Bad hos!
Lol. Carol, I told my hubby a secret the other day. Should have kept it to myself. Lol. He thinks I'm on crack now.
ReplyDeletePoor Tina. Yahoo Bebbi! Good morning to all who haven't yet arrived.
ReplyDeleteCarol, nice blog. Maybe all those secrets are crowding other good things in your head. Writing them down, then destroying them might feel nice. Nobody has to know.
Sorry LL, you popped in whilst I was typing. Good morning to you!
ReplyDeleteYay Bebbi #1 hooter!
ReplyDeleteI heart Carol's crypic head.
*SWOON*
Sorry about yesterday. My emotions some times get the best of me.
*knocks over all owls like a stack of domino hos one on top of each other*
Have a great day everyone!
*comes back in to help Lani up*
ReplyDeleteSorry, I forgot about that fly kicking your ass. Hope your back feels better!!!
LL...
ReplyDeleteThis Ho.. certainly took it.. Thanks!
And btw..
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Bebbi...
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Tina...
Go to the beach.. and get a tan just like Birdee.. :O)
LL..
ReplyDeleteYes.. it is a cryptic head.. glad you like the craziness that lives in it.. :O)
Tina..
ReplyDeleteI think your hubby as known all along that you are on crack.. btw,
didn't he run away from home?
Bonacci..
ReplyDeleteI never thought of that.. maybe I will try it.. if you ever see a massive fire on FOX about a NJ fire.. that would be me..
Everyone have a great day..
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The QOTD.. J/L picked.. cracks me up!
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ReplyDeleteCAROL: I'm always questioning what a write..does it make sense..did I really mean to say that..I second guess myself all the time. Someone once told me though..if you're going write it..be prepared to live with it..so that's what I try to do now. I think there are a few people that can attest to the fact that I'm not always successful at hitting 'publish' without worrying..but I do try.
As for hiding my true feelings..nope..never have been able to do that. I sometimes wish I could though. I really do.
BEBBI: Congrats on FIRST!
ReplyDeleteTINA: Well...everyone else is on crack..don't you think it's time you joined us? ;)
BONACHI: It's kind of like typing out an email..and hitting delete instead of send..it really does make you feel better..as long as you don't hit the wrong key..ijs.. ;)
LL/NN: Just be sure when you knock us over that I'm at the end so no one gets smooshed... ;)
CAROL: Congrats on getting 69..I didn't look..just took your word for it.. ;)
MO: Help...wink overload.. ;) ;)
awwww...
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ReplyDeleteSHIRLEY: Another notch on the wall please.. :D
ReplyDeleteGood Morning Hooters!
ReplyDeletecongrats on 1st Bebbi.
Is it safe to come in or is Lois still knocking over everyone?
Carol, what seemed like a simple question to me became more complex as I thought about it.
I can keep all my secrets in well I also can keep someone elses secret. To a fault sometimes. It all depends on the the issues for me.
If you hurt someone I love, or you are hurtfull to something or someone that is important to me- well then I let it loose.
I have never, ever had a jopurnal and will not. I keep it in my head or talk about it. I never want something to come back and bite me in the ass or hurt someone later on if they should find or read those journals. I know lots of people who say it is catharic to write and have the words on paper-me not so much.
Hope everyone has a good day.
Morning Glories!
ReplyDeleteCongrats on first Bebbi! You squeezed Tina out! LOL
Carol funny you and I seem to be going through similar things at the moment. I have been struggling with many thoughts lately. Some I thought I had forgotten or moved passed or just pushed down. They have been coming back like a freight train on the tracks and I am just standing there. Don't know what to do and trying to find a way to lay some to rest.
I sometimes think I think to much and then I think I am shutting down the thinking and then it reminds me I need to think some things through and then I look for my thinking hat and later I think I will toss said hat into the fire.
I am worn out by thinking.
Oh Lordy!!!! you all don't want to know what goes on in my mind or what come's out of my mouth.....scary, very scary!!! ;o)
ReplyDeleteRight now, it's being directed at Comcrap!!!
Waving at you all!
shit.....so i told hubby about the blog and what i wrote.....and he now wants to know all my other secrets!!!! I had to scream "You can't handle my secrets!!!"
ReplyDeletelol.....we went shopping cuz the weather is crummy today.....met a REALLY nice lady named Sarah~ She wants me to move here cuz she says we'd be friends......don't worry all.....I told her I'm really a bitch! took her another 10 min, but she finally saw it!!!
We are at best buy....hubby forgot his power cord for his laptop and it's killing ME not having too much access to a computer~
oh......and NN/LL~ I can see you are leaving me notes at face book (see them in my email) but can't respond......but thank you (the first one) and DAMN (for the second one!!!)
ReplyDeleteThanks for all the congrats on first. It's been a while for me.
ReplyDeleteWow, Tina, Damn x 2?...can you say SORE LOSER? I will have to remember that when you beat me in bejeweled blitz and Damn you times two too.
GAK! Tina without a laptop? The world must be ending.
ReplyDeletetina~ is Utah that bad that you never stay there???
ReplyDeleteCan't imagine you without a laptop.
Still working on gettin my encryption back on my work computer- this may kill me (or the IT guy working on it).
Also just found out #2 son is coming home for Christmas from the 17 thru the 27th!! YEAH
Now you want to know the kicker? He works for an airline that doesn't fly here- so we have to book him on one that does and it is frigging expensive!!!
Hope everyone is enjoying their evening. Nighty night!
Goldie-I love to travel. What can I say? Can't ur kid fly standby on another airline?
ReplyDeleteBebbi-lol. Double damn!!! I can't beat u at bejeweled this week. Can't play on this phone. Shit, I can barely type.
Bonachichi- ur a shit!! :D
Good evening, HOoters!
ReplyDeleteBebbi Congrats on first and especially on beating out Tina. ;)
Tina I hope you get better weather tomorrow. Why are you in FLA, anyway?
NN/LL You are too funny! Bad hos, indeed!
Bonach Hi, Ho! :)
Zona You're always so sweet, I don't know why you worry.
Goldie Yay, for #2 son making it home for Christmas! :)
LynnD I can think myself into circles, sometimes.
Birdee LOL @ Comcrap!
Carol Sometimes putting our feelings down on paper can be cathartic. I don't think I'd ever want to keep a journal, though. Poets, of course, were always putting their feelings down on paper, but usually disguising them in metaphors. Perhaps it helped them sort through their feelings and express their most private secrets without really exposing them in direct terms.
J/L- hubby has a catholic principles conference in jacksonville. So of course I came with him. I'm not giving up a free trip!! Besides, I'm going to see a friend tomorrow. :D
ReplyDeleteUra shit, Ima shit, we're all shit shit shits.
ReplyDeleteAn awful lot of shitting going on here! I will step carefully!
ReplyDeleteI am not a good writer. Words get tangled in my head. I tried to write about my growing up years a while back and kept getting things all out of order. Who ever reads it will think I was on crack while writing.
I wanted my sons and Grandchildren to have a glimpse into my childhood. You never know, someday they may wonder why Grandma/Mom was such a crazy woman lol! I did this because I didn't know much about my parents younger years. I always wondered what they were like and how things were in their day. Growing up I didn't think it was all that important, now I regret not asking them. I try not to write about negative stuff. I want them to know I had a fun side to me. I thought I had lost that part of me, but being in the nest with all you sweet and crazy gals has given it back to me and for that I thank you, even Tina lol!!
Thanks for making me feel young and fun. Oh dear, I wrote a novel. I guess I can write when I want to lol!
Good nite all! I have a Karaoke/DJ gig tomorrow nite. I will peek in, so be good ;-)
Nite sweet lurkers :)
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ReplyDeleteMary I agree that it would be overwhelming to write a whole autobiography. How about just writing short stories about events in your life, big ones or little ones? You know, like "Going to the Fair" or "My First Crush". Stuff like that.
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ReplyDeleteJustlin, it's not fair, you left me drooling over your avatar last night! Can I just bite your breast pleeze lol! Nite
ReplyDeleteMary-I thought what u wrote was such a cool idea........until a got to the part where u said "even tina" YOU BITCH!!!!!!
ReplyDeleteJ/L-I like ur idea too
Hmmmmmm.....remind me never to room with mary!!!!! Ouch!!!!
ReplyDeleteTina I have missed you!.... I can't believe I said that!
ReplyDeleteTina, you are on my time zone! What are you doing up girl?
ReplyDeleteI can totally believe it!!!! Lol! Hey mary....I'm in bed, in the dark. And the mr is snoring in my ear. I feel like u!!!!
ReplyDeleteMary I can't believe you said that, either. LMBO!!!
ReplyDeleteI was checking my email one more time
ReplyDeleteI do NOT miss having some snoring next to me.
ReplyDeleteShut the ef up J/L
ReplyDeleteAre you going for a 69 with Mr. T right there, none the wiser?
ReplyDeleteOf course u don't jl. You do it all by urself!!!!
ReplyDeleteIf I was, I wouldn't know it.
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ReplyDeleteI can't march on this damn phone
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ReplyDeleteI got 69, you shit in bed, and Mr. T is snoring. Now that's what I call a party! LOL
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ReplyDeleteI guess you don't have the right equipment for a 69. :)
ReplyDeleteOkay. Now that I've successfully not gotten 69, I'm going to sleep!!! Goodnight jl and mary
ReplyDeleteSweet dreams!
ReplyDeleteI picked a fine time to piss!!
ReplyDeleteYou to are crazy!
Tina My Mr and yours could start a snoring contest. Mine would win for sure! He is under the influence too lol! I am regretting feeding him pinto beans for super!
Now I really ,really going to bed!!
Good night, Mary! Sweet dreams.
ReplyDeleteNight guys....I have been farming much too long tonight but I cleaned my desk while I did it so that was good and watched some TV in my office. I wonder when I get up from this computer if I will be able to walk.
ReplyDeleteCongrats J/L on your 49ers tonight. Not a huge score but glad you won especially against Chicago and Cutler!! 5 interceptions....wow...glad he got mad at us and left!!