A push is always good!

sometimes we need a push
if we want to do something and
just don't believe we are capable
we need a push

there have been many times in
my life, where i did not think i
was capable of doing something
i just did not have the confidence
to proceed

i needed a push, it is usually not just
one person, as in different times i
need a different pusher, all might
say the same, however only one will
stand out, and i will take the push from
that one person

when i think back on my life, i realize now
that any and all my endeavors would
have not been, if i did not receive that
very needed push, it completes my
decision, it makes me brave!

a decision had to be made regarding
my dad, i was not strong enough
to make it on my own, i needed a push
my dearest middle nephew gave me
the most endearing push, i grabbed
onto it, and held it tightly

i only wish, that perhaps someday i could
feel strong enough about myself, perhaps
get the confidence to believe in me
without hesitation, as this would allow
me to make that decision on my own

i always say "baby steps" as then you
can ease thru things, without to much of
a struggle

for now i will welcome the push
and just take it slowly
learning a new way is always hard
however i think
baby steps and time will help~~