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Wednesday, April 9, 2008

Yep, That's Me, Controlling!


i know this about me, it stares
me in the face daily, i have control
issues, the thing that worries me
is when i am in the moment i don't
see it, till after the issue is done
i then sit back and ponder why the
heck did i need to control that situation

and yes, at times i make a huge problem
for others and they don't want to tell
me that i am a total control freak, so instead
they back away

several yrs ago my younger cousin was
getting married, she ask me to be a bridesmaid
in her wedding, we are 18yrs apart and i asked
her if she was sure she wanted me by her
side, she then said "my wedding without
you would not be complete" so i accepted her
offer, as i know she loves me

when she was picking out the dresses i was
all over her, telling her the color, what type of gown
etc. she appeased me and let me chatter on

as several days went by and i did not hear from her
i called her sister, and without hesitation her sister
told me to back off, and she was right,
i was thankful she allowed me to see one
of my biggest faults

my cousin and i had a good chat about it
and all was fine, she got married and i wore
exactly what she picked out

this incident always resurfaces in my
memory, whenever i find myself controlling a issue

i used to hope this incident taught me a lesson
however it does not seem it did, as i
still have this huge fault and just can't
seem to get past it

can it just me part of my personality or
part of my being? would i not be me if i was
not controlling?

something to think about, which i will
all day~~

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night.owls.sb said...

Oh shit I was in the middle of a march and did not even no it...

LOL....

night.owls.sb said...

My Favorite

Tina~in_ut said...

hi carol~

Tina~in_ut said...

french fries!~

night.owls.sb said...

♪♪ Happy Dance ♪♪

♪♪ Happy Dance ♪♪

I did it...Thanks Joey!!♥♥♥

night.owls.sb said...

Well, I was just practicing!!!

night.owls.sb said...

For Tina

night.owls.sb said...

TinaHO
Congrats on 200!

night.owls.sb said...

For MEK

night.owls.sb said...

Oh this is so much fun!!!

I am a renaming link crackwhore!!

Whooo Hoooo

Mary/MI said...

OMG Carol, crack hoes & FF! All them FF made me hungry!!

night.owls.sb said...

For Mo

Mary/MI said...

Carol, where is my Vegasho stuff?

night.owls.sb said...

mary
So funny...lol

night.owls.sb said...

For Mary

JoeyfromSC said...

LMAO@Carol! YAHEEEE! I almost forgot I sent you those instructions haha

Amicus: Kewl that you used them on myspace and now you can here!

Iteach: Awww shucks, thanks haha
I actually stumbled on the face/hole one on someone's status on myspace! lol

I believe I may have a "gift" for it though.or "knack"! lol(SP?mek?lol)

JoeyfromSC said...

haha Carol is on a roll;)She's gonna need a 12-step program! lol

I can relate to your excitement..When I figured it out about 1 and 1/2 yrs. ago, I was thrilled!!

night.owls.sb said...

For Zona

JoeyfromSC said...

OH and I also typed in 'white text' like Mikey did before on another blog, and that thrilled me when I found out how to do that..But I recently found my code, tried it and it no longer works!:(:(

The frat hottie I told y'all about last night, told me in our discussion (See it wasn't all play-some talking was involved!ROFLMAO) that he knows tons about HTML code and designs websites on his MAC!! I found me an "edumacated man"! ROFLMAO

night.owls.sb said...

For Joey

JoeyfromSC said...

Thanks renaminglinkcrackwhore(your words-haha)!! I was nervous about what you might choose for me;)haha
I wasn't sure if it would be porn or not! ROFLMAO

Picture change!!;)

night.owls.sb said...

Joey
As long as you can call him on his cellie you and the "edumacated man" will be perfect together!

JoeyfromSC said...

ROFLMAO@Carol! But see, he thinks he's "str8" too..so it is what it is haha
125! YIPEE!

night.owls.sb said...

Joey
How funny I was thinking of porn, but just could not do it :O)

JoeyfromSC said...

WHOOPS! I meant 225 haha

night.owls.sb said...

He thinks he is straight, However he knows he is gay :O)

JoeyfromSC said...

Funny that today on his AIM away message it says he has a "catering exam" then it says "I love you, be back later!"

Well, guess he has a g/f and didn't tell me! Don't they all! Although we had a great time last night, I don't think I made him fall in love that fast! HAHA

LMAO@almost got me a porn link!

Mary/MI said...

Carol, you are a genius LOL! You are fast to boot!

I forgot to wave back at MEK~~~~

JoeyfromSC said...

LMAO Carol!

oh and I have been known to have "that affect" on these str8 guys! lol

I am turning in ladies! Y'all have a fabulous Thong Thursday!(HODI?LOL)

night.owls.sb said...

Mek
Sorry I did not know you waved..So I am waving back madly....

night.owls.sb said...

Good Nite Joey

Tina~in_ut said...

lol carol...how come I can click on everyone else's links and the page comes up and mine says "Site Authorization Request!!" is it naughty? :)~

night.owls.sb said...

I am saying Good Nite, all this renaming links, has made this crackwhore tired...

Good Nite!

:O)

Mary/MI said...

Nighters Joey, go SRTAIGHT to bed LOL!!

night.owls.sb said...

Tina
It really was not that naughty, put you are at work, so maybe it won't let you access it. When you go home try it.

Tina~in_ut said...

Goodnight Carol and Joey~ :)~

hey Mary~

Mary/MI said...

oops I meant "straight" lol!!

Mary/MI said...

Goodnight Carol!! It's been fun! You got email

night.owls.sb said...

240 Just because I am going to bed!

night.owls.sb said...

Ok Mary I will check it in the morning...

Really Really going know...

Mary/MI said...

Hi Tina!!

Mary/MI said...

Tina it'$ a Crackhore Confe$$ions $ite. LOL! I think it'$ a pay a$ you go place heh heh!

Zona said...

CPGEM: You're so welcome. I hope the Vista works out for you! We never upgraded. I was too afeared!

Love the links! OMG! You are like a kid in a candy store. I just love it!

G'night and Sweet Dreams!

Goodnight JOEY!!

HI MARY/MI!!

TINA: Did you get complete satisfaction out of 200?? ;)

Mary/MI said...

Hey Zona~ What were your temps. today?

Mary/MI said...

Craps! I forgot to place the adds for our steak fry next week!(VFW).They have to be in by morning! I better git-r-done! Later....

Zona said...

MARY: It was kinda cool today, about 73..and the lows will be in the 50's. This weekend we might hit 100 though, and they are having a marathon, a county fair, and a race at PIR!!

MEK in AZ said...

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MEK in AZ said...

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Zona said...

MEK: LOL!!! :)

MEK in AZ said...

Hey everyone..

Mary - funny asking what the temps were in the desert!! :-)

it was actually cloudy, RAINED - we had LOUD thunder - my 100 pound Barney thought he could be a lap dog - NOT!!! (he hates thunder)

anyway - next week, will hit the 90's!! All the local stations have contests to see who can guess the day AND time that it hits 100!!

do they do that in Phoenix, ZOna?

Cpgem - thanks for the link to MEKAL's - I already have it bookmarked - imagine that!! LOL

Tina - congrats on 200!!

I'm off to bed - I'm wearing myself out with all this work I am creating for myself!!

I hope everyone has an excellent Thursday!! -

MEK in AZ said...

Hey ZOna!!!

kahonugrl said...

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MEK in AZ said...

Hey Turtle!!

kahonugrl said...

Hey MEK, I thought you had gone to bed.

Tinkatia said...

Just checking in and out. Good night my daughter Zona and all of her little owls friends. Be good. See you in the morning. I have a Ghost Whisperer and a warm bed waiting for me.
Love, Tinka

Mary/MI said...

MEK, I guess I just wanted to know that SOMEBODY was feeling warm LOL!

Zona, I love County fairs! The last frontier LOL!
I'm so old, I remember going to the very last "girly" shows they used to have. A friend of mine and I went and sat in the front row and laughed our asses off so hard that we were kicked out !! Heh Heh!!
I have several chalk cu-pie dolls from way back when!

Mary/MI said...

Hi Tinka, bye Tinka

Bon'O said...

It's not been easy staying off the computer all day, but I'll get better with practice! Just caught up on reading posts and wanted to pop in to wish all a good night and even better tomorrow!

Watching the incredible Diane Sawyer Primetime "The Last Lecture--A Love Story for Your Life" . How inspirational, but I am running out of tissues. Stories like this just break my heart. Reminds me of the mom who had cancer and video taped all the mother-daughter talks for the occasions she knew she'd miss. Professor Randy Pausch...what a guy, think I need to track his web site....and learn.

(p.s.--Speaking of watching tv, doubt anyone reads my crap to even notice, but apologies to James Spader for calling him David Spade last night. What was I thinkin'? Actually had just seen a DS SNL clip and I guess it stuck in my brain---or my head was just up my a** at the time. That's the likely answer :o)

Sweet dreams y'all!

Zona said...

MEK: I avoid guessing when it will hit 100..it comes too soon for me! The newspaper does have a contest though. I wanted rain and thunder!!

KGRL: Waving and envying you in Hawaii right now. Well, pretty much all the time! :)

MARY: Too hot for county fairs for me. I am so allergic to farm animals, I would need TWO inhalers!!

TINKA: Goodnight and Sweet Dreams CyberMom...Love You!!

VIG says Hi and Hey to everyone. She also better be sleeping right now! ;)

SACBARB: How many more days? ;)

IBB: He's GONE!!! YAY!!!

Zona said...

BON'O: James Spader was great last night! I just love Boston Legal..though that episode was kinda bittersweet. BTW: We all have our "David Spade" moments...I have A LOT of them!!

Sweet dreams to you!!

MEK: G'night!!

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kahonugrl said...

hey zonaho

Zona said...

Hey KGRL..and another 2-69!! Congrats and ENJOY!! ;)

I'm surprised TINA didn't try for it tonight. Maybe she's numb from all the marching. ;)

Mary/MI said...

Kahonugrl~ you're getting to be quite the 69erho LOL! If memory serves that used to be fun :+}

I'm off to bed. I have a lot going tomorrow. Sweet dreams all!

Daniel's Nuse said...

daniel?

Tina~in_ut said...

Goodnight Mary~

congrats KaHo on another well done 69~ :)~

Hey Zona~ fancy meeting you here~ :D

Daniel's Nuse said...

I have been searching for Daniel every where, high and low, in the dorm, doubled over the sink in barf position.
Daniel can you hear me?!

Daniel's Nuse said...

daniel, i'll wait only one more minute and then leave you behind.

Daniel's Nuse said...

daniel you have 30 seconds now

kahonugrl said...

tinaHO:

Still eating them HOHO's?

Mary/MI said...

Night Tina, I just popped in to see if you showed up. Miss yah kiddo. Maybe tomorrow.G-night again.

Daniel's Nuse said...

this isn't funny daniel to tell me to sign up and wait here and now you're no where to be found.

Tina~in_ut said...

Goodnight mary....behave~ wait...don't do that~ :)~

Tina~in_ut said...

kgrl~ I wish....well...I look like i have been...but no~ :( I haven't snacked on anything but Boston Baked Beans today~ :D

kahonugrl said...

WTF? Only baked beans? good lord I pity your coworkers.....lol. Tell me you washed it down with a carbonated diet Pepsi as well....lmao

Zona said...

GOODNIGHT MARY!!!

Tina~in_ut said...

lol.....try 3 diet pepsi's!!!! I know....they are bad for me.....but I just love them~ I wonder if Jodi went shopping for the stuff she was supposed to get for the meeting! :)~

kahonugrl said...

what meeting?

Zona said...

TINA: I picked up some sage incense!!

kahonugrl said...

damn I love Annie Lennox, that woman is amazing, socially and musically

Tina~in_ut said...

lol.....sorry....I'm the COO and Hodi is the Social Director and DeeDee is the President of the club! Jodi was supposed to get kool-aid and some other stuff! I think you should be in charge of HoHo bringing! :)~

Tina~in_ut said...

yay zona~ bring it in......the place smells~

Tina~in_ut said...

kgrl~ are you watching AI?

kahonugrl said...

yup! Ann WIlson is looking kinda used up.... her voice which is usually dead on, was off. I just got my tickets in the mail for their concert here in June.

And now Celine Dion is on, please ......that woman could write a check for 5 million US or Canadian and it wouldn't even put a dent in her change purse.

kahonugrl said...

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Mary/MI said...

Night Zona

Tina~in_ut said...

hey~ :)~

kahonugrl said...

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Tina~in_ut said...

hi~

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Tina~in_ut said...

YAY~~~~

Tina~in_ut said...

I know.....about Celine....why don't people just give....i guess they do....actually....I would rather not know what people give...it should be private~

kahonugrl said...

you HO! why you gotta kick me in the fins?

Tina~in_ut said...

uh....cuz i like you? :D

kahonugrl said...

NO you luv me (xoxo)

kahonugrl said...

damn sheila e still looks fantastic!

kahonugrl said...

i dont get sarah silverman?? i mean she gets me to smile at every 7th or 8th joke....

Tina~in_ut said...

Sarah goes too far...except for her Matt Damon video..that was hilarious~

I love Sheila E...now I can't wait to get home to watch~

I wish I had taped the Diane Sawyer thing~

and yes...i do love you~ :)

kahonugrl said...

i can DVR it and put it on cd for you
but you can probably see it on you tube tomorrow

Tina~in_ut said...

lol....i just can't get over the fact that everything is on youtube!!!

whabbear said...

For Carol:

Carol, I am such a fool.
I love you though you make me mewl,
Control me and then make me bi
Cause if you leave me I will surely die.

Darling you will never meet another
Who is such a doe
don't you release me,
Never let me go
I will always follow your commanding
So tell me what to do
Oh! Carol, you dominatrix, you!

Tina~in_ut said...

Bear is on crack!!!! i want some! :)~

Just_Lin said...

Whabbear Now that was interesting! Maybe that's a topic for another blog. LOL

Just_Lin said...

I guess everyone has gone to bed. Good night Owlettes and Owls. See you tomorrow.

Jodi said...

Good morning HOoters!!!

Zona said...

HI JODI! How are you this morning?

Jodi said...

ZONA - Great!!! Just had my first cup of coffee. I don't have to work til 5am today, so I got to sleep til 3!!! :P

Jodi said...

TINA - I went shopping for said items......no problem with the first.....having trouble getting my hands on the second. I might have to check with my SIL.....she's a chemist!!! I'll let you know. :P

Jodi said...

320!!!!

I hope everyone has a great THONG THURSDAY!!!

Sure would luv to see LOVEY'S thonged owl today!!! :P

Tina~in_ut said...

Jodi~ awesome~ let me know when you have everything! :)~

night.owls.sb said...

whabby
Oh my, that was priceless!

night.owls.sb said...

tina
I thought I was the only one that felt that way about Sarah Silverman.

Except for the videos w/Matt Damon
I don't like anything she says or does...

So Glad some one else agrees :O)

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