Phobia's

PHOBIA’S

by Lynn D

I am calling this blog phobia because that is what I have when it comes to dentists. I am obsessing over this right now as you are reading this tale of woe. As I am either in the car or on my way to the oral surgeon or am right now in the chair as they prepare to dig out my last lone wisdom tooth and the one in front of it.

Let me say I come by this phobia in a true and honest manner. The first dentist I remember was when I was five. I don’t remember what was being done, (I think a filling as I have always had crappy teeth) but I do remember the dentist slapping me in the face. Seems very harsh to me as I am sure they were torturing me with drills and needles and all of their weapons of torture.

The second dentist was when I was a teen and get this, he did not believe in over using Novocain. What he really meant was he did not believe in using much if any. I had a crown on one tooth that kept popping off (he didn’t believe in using enough glue to bond either) and I would go in to have it fixed and he would yank and pull my gums back and push that damn crown back in place until my gums would bleed. Yep you guessed no Novocain.

There have been other nightmares over the years a root canal on an upper back tooth that by the time I got home my whole face on that side was so swollen that it was affecting the main nerve and it felt like a cattle prod was hitting me in the face. That one I had to go to the emergency room.

Now for today’s fresh torture, I have one wisdom tooth left in my head it is a lower back one. No dentist has wanted to touch it. I had one tell me they may have to break my jaw to get it out. The last oral surgeon that looked at it kept cautioning me about how close it is to the two main nerves in my face, well you get the picture. I did not walk from their offices I ran as fast as my damn legs would carry me.

I can’t put it off any longer. The stupid thing is on its side it never came in right and I can’t get a piece of floss back there to keep it clean. We have all known this was inevitable but went with the theory if it isn’t causing pain leave it alone. It is now just starting to cause pain and it has to go. It has even affected the tooth in front of it.

So I am having them out today. I don’t know what will happen and I am scared spit less. I have been in high anxiety since Sunday and it is escalating!!! I am no pain wimp I did natural childbirth and had no problems with that, but this is scaring the bejesus out of me!!

So say a prayer my Owls friends and any of you that are agnostic just send pain pills please!

What are your phobias??? I will try to read them if I make it home.

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Feeling Free??

BIRDEE BEING VERY BAD
Thanks ♥Lovey♥

i wanna be carefree, i don't wanna
have to worry what other people
are thinking, i don't what to try
and rack my brain why someone
did this and why someone did that

i just wanna be able to turn my
cheek and not wonder wtf

it is in my being to be a caring person
i over extend myself to all, which is not
a struggle for me, it comes naturally

however, if someone does something
that somewhat affects me, it bothers me
even tho i know i have no control over
their feelings, its like i want to fix it
but just don't have the tools

this feeling has been with me always
i really don't think i can change it

in different aspects of my personality
i like to change things or work on them
and with time usually i succeed

with this, i don't think i can, it is
something i will have to deal with
i can't shuffle the cards on the deal
they are handed to me and i must
accept them, it is just the way it is

so my brain will work overtime
as it always does, and i will just
wonder why and wtf?

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Cherry Blossoms

last weekend was our time here
for the cherry blossoms to bloom

the blossoms bloom in Branch Brook
Park which is in walking distance
from my house, i grew up around this
park as so did my parents

you can drive thru this park, as it
covers two cities Belleville and Newark
i drive thru the park often as there are
no diversions such as lights

my dad walks the track in the park
every morning by the bocce ball courts
were all the Italians play bocce ball

i think of my mom and dad with their
friends "hanging" at Branch Brook Park
and i smile, such a sweet memory they
shared with me

it is a landmark in our county, it has
seen many different ethnicity's throughout
the years, it knows many secrets, including
mine :O)

in the Newark section the park element
has changed, several yrs back i was walking
the track and i see a young man lying in the
middle of the track, as i approach i hear
sirens, i look at the young man and he
is not moving, a passerby tells me that
he is dead and the police have been called

i stood their frozen, unable to move
he could have only been 18
as the police approach, i leave with
this horror of a memory, one that i
will never forgot

you see this park has good and bad
memories for me, just as in life

and every year at this time i make
sure i go to see those wonderful
cherry blossoms and as i walk thru the
park, i think of that young man, never
having a chance in life, which always
makes me grateful for mine~~

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♪♪ Happy Dance ♪♪

this my friends is one of my
favorites!

it is a great way to start your
day!

make those frowns into smiles
head up, back straight, breathe!

happy dance time!

life is good!

Enjoy! ♥♥

Patience

the older I become it seems the
the less patience i have
even tho i know patience will
help me get thru my daily life
patience escapes me

it seems every occurrence
in my daily activities
comes with patience
work, driving, standing in line,
clients, family, etc etc etc
there is not one thing that does
not require patience

i need to find a way
to get patience back in my life
as to make it easier for me
take a deep breathe..breath in..exhale
repeat as necessary

yea right, easier said than done!

Lets Share Recipes!

this is ibb's first blog
so glad she decided to
take the plunge!

Lets Share Recipes

by ibb

I have been thinking about writing a Blog...But thought what do I have to say... Then the idea hit me... Cooking.. Easy recipes that are delicious and easy!!!

The next day VIG had the blog topic of DIETS... Well I thought I better wait a while before I did this... Then a week later Goldie and Jodi were talking about swapping recipes... And then a couple of days ago there was more talk on the blog about recipes.. So I am coming out of my comfortable " Just Watching " place and I am jumping in ...

I think we need to devote a day to sharing recipes!!!

We all need help with "Oh .. What do I not want to make for dinner tonight??"

My favorite easy recipe... Is

OVEN FRIED CHICKEN

It is too easy.. No mess and it tastes like you slaved over a stove all day.. My co-workers would never believe that the chicken I brought in for lunch was actually "fried" in the OVEN..

Pre-heat oven to 425 degrees

In a 9 x 13 pan.. Glass or Pyrex is what I use.

Put 1/4 cup on Solid Crisco

1/4 cup of butter

Melt in oven..

Flour chicken

Place in melted crisco/butter mix SKIN SIDE DOWN

Baked for 30 minutes.. Turn it over bake 30 more minutes...

You have the best fried chicken without mess...

Please help me with some very delish and easy recipes...

I know you all have them!!!!

Grey's Anatomy

my favorite show is coming back
tonight, i have missed it so much
i love all the characters and the
meaning behind them all

their faults out way all that they
are and i love watching them grow
i route for mcdreamy and meredith
in each and every episode, i just feel
they need to be together

it seems to me that almost every
episode is just so true to life
the struggles, the happiness, the loss

when izzie fell in love with denny
as he lay in bed dying, my heart
was saddened for her, as you really
felt the love, when her friends surround
her and carry her off, you know if it
were you, friends would be needed
and they would be there

i don't remember a show ever having
a affect on me like grey's does, i feel
like i know all of them, and sometimes
i can even predict what will happen next

i remember the episode when mcdreamy
had to pick between his wife and meredith
and meredith just looked at him and said
"pick me" as the tears streamed down
my face, i knew he would pick his wife
which he did

i adore that meredith is cristina's
"person" cristina seems so strong
yet, she so needs meredith

i am excited about tonight, i can't wait
to see where all the characters are going
and were they have all been

this is a special show for me, for some
reason it just gives me the hope that
one can love, whether they are together
or apart, the love is there, raw and real

♥♥♥