"its ok"

in life there are so many surprises

just when you think you have it all 

figured out, the surprise appears

whether it's good or bad is up to you

for so many years i wondered 

if this is where i am suppose to be

did i miss all those opportunity's 

on purpose

they say you should always look forward

as behind you is the past which cannot be 

changed, you only have the future to change

i find myself changing, doing things i would 

not ordinarily do, i find myself taking risks

that I never thought I would

at the wedding a dear friend of mine

who knows my past, my skeletons, my history

simply took my hand

looked in my eyes and said

"it's time for you, it's time for you to be happy"

i felt a tear evolve, and then a second 

i stood there not saying a word

trying hard so a third would not appear

and he hugged me

whispered in my ear 

"it's ok, i know it's ok"

i allowed the hug to take hold of me

he felt good, a meaningful embrace

"yes i said, it is ok" 

strange things happen when you least expect it

from sources that are so unexpected

and those are the things that stick in your mind

the unexpected

so true