and so it seems life changes is a moment
just when you think you have everything under control
life unravels
and you must hold on tight
as they say everything happens for a reason
however one must wait to find the reason
the wait can be long and daunting
but it will show
with time everything does
it's the demeanor that changes and
at times not for the good
you have to wonder where the hateful
words come from
perhaps it's the bitterness built up inside
it is let loose like a lion let out of a cage
the roar is frightening
the wonder of the person and who it becomes
the life that should have been
so fragile life is one should never forget
to give up is useless the fight is worth it
life is worth it
i can't understand one giving up
it's not in my nature
i refuse to change
so be it
i am me you see what you get
never underestimate what my possibilities can be
i will continue
you will see
61 comments:
pretty?~
Carol~ I really hope Sal gets better, and if not, that you find some help~ mwah~
Jodi~ shuddup about my company~ they're cramping my style~
cheater!
Morning Tina!
I thought you would let DeeDee have her BAM!! this morning, considering you are still on probation with her.
Shirley honey~ I'm pretty sure I won't make it to my 3 yr anniversary the way I'm going! ijs~ AND...I will have you know...I've got a week of vacation starting this afternoon....and I'm NOT getting up early just to be first....will prolly be hiding in my room....away from the mil~
Morning Glories!
Tina, Tina, Tina......
Hi Shirley!
Carol read your post from yesterday and was really happy to see you pop in. I had just asked someone if you were ok. I was getting worried.
Really I am still worried as you are putting in so many hours. Not good. I get why you have to but it will take a toll.
I am so sorry Sal is going through all of this, it is sad when it seems like someone has given up. I am hoping that this is a short lived dip into depression for him, because that is what it is in my mind. It is so hard to accept limitations where are bodies are concerned. I know that in the last few years I have had a hard time realizing there are just some things I should not do any more and it sucks.
I hope he can move through the fog and find his yellow.
I wish I was closer, I would come in and at least make cawfee for you or dust. I can file like a crazed woman when need be. ((((Hugs)))
Tina why would you hide from your MIL? Enjoy the time with her. Take her out shopping, to a movie, bowling, am amusement park or just take her to lunch. Show her how much you care and love her. Buy her some flowers.
Hello ladies....you too Tina...
Thats a nice thought Shirley...but Miss "I am the center of the universe" doesn't give an inch!!
I was looking forward to another one of your discoveries today....
Some of you may remember my Epilady experience.....those things are the cruelest things ever invented IMHO...
Yes tina, you are pretty this morning!
Good morning everyone~
Carol- I am so sorry about Sal. I think I can understand, and if he has chosen to give up, (and its not just depression speaking), allow him to. Give him your blessing- as much as it pains you as his friend, partner and as a human.
It could be one of the greatest gifts you give him.
Yes, we must all learn to deal with physical restrictions and loss of mobility or live with pain at some point in our life. But to endure a medical condition that is killing you-with no hope of getting better-well that is a whole different ball of wax.
Ok- enough out of me
Hey Shirley, Lynn & Dee Dee!!!!!
I have been busier than a popcorn fart in a windstorm, so havent' been on. All is well and hope eveyone out there in Hooterville is ok!
Morning Lynn D and DeeDee!
DeeDee I did find another invention I'm sure you will like. I've sent it to Tina. Not sure when she is posting it, so stay tuned to the Owl Network!
Carol I think I've missed something. I thought Sal had a toe removed. Did that turn into something more? What exactly is his problem...if you don't mind my asking?
I have no doubt that you will get through this difficult time. I will be sending you ((HUGS)) and yellow smiles as often as I can. Remember when you are woring these long hours your body needs food...not just chocolate and cawfee...real food...so eat...and don't smoke too much...and wear your damn seatbelt!!!
Hi everyone,
Tina I can't believe you would cheat every morning to get first!
Carol hang in there, and take care of yourself.
If I lived in NJ I would come and help out too! Not sure what I would be good at but there must be something! :)
We had a downpour here about 4:30am, woke up and peeked outside, very surprised to see the rain.
It's almost summer!
Supposed to get more tomorrow too.
We are actually happy about the rain as it delays having to turn on the sprinklers for another week or so. Do not look forward to big water bills in the summer.
Dee Dee I sent Carol a video of a new, must-have product, you will be AMAZED. Not sure when it will post but be on the lookout!
Off to do errands this morning, we are both off today.
Have a good one!
Goldie I stand corrected. You really made me think, I don't know what I would do if I was handed the same diagnosis. I would like to think I would pull out of my funk and move forward but I don't know that I would.
Carol, goldie is right you can only show support and then you have to do what is good for the business and you.
Would someone please catch me up? I thought Sal was in rehab for alcohol or some such dependency. Now he's giving up? Is he ill?
I'm not sure I believe everything happens for a reason. Sometimes sucky things just happen. I was talking to a 20 year-old girl yesterday. Her brother died in January. Her dad was diagnosed with lymphoma in Feburary and her live-in girlfriend dumped her in April. Oh, I see. The REASON was to let her experience depression. Carol, keep your friends close and don't be afraid to lean on them,
Shirley I keep forgetting to ask how things are going weather wise and all in the "land down under"....
and I noticed that you said that you would be sending Carol yellow smiles.....do you smoke as well...?
Also I meant to tell you that I nailed one of your peacocks in IP yestiddy.....and that is sooo unusual because everything on your island had always been so secure.
If I were a betting person I would be willing to place a wager on that little cemetery at the back of your island that you are just not as interested in the game as you were at one time.....
And Lynn D....you really did it.
You have packed up your pinwheels and left the islands!! And didn't even say goodbye!!
Or did you sell out to big oil!!?? British Petroleum is drilling on your island as we speak.....
Some of the "native" islanders are talking about wanting to shrink your head....but not me! I am a capitalist at heart you know.....
A plane crashed on my island and I have had to redo the entire island around that.....and "LOST" is filming its sequel..."LOSTER" on my island.....
Everyone is welcome to stop by for a mai-tai and see my new island...it is stunning......oh! and Lynn D....if ur coming let me know a little in advance...Chief Wannatutu and several of his tribe would like to meet with you personally....something about some missing artifacts.....I'm sure its a misunderstanding....
"Good morning ladies, you too Tina" LMAO!!! DeeDee, you are just too much. I had to skim comments quickly the past few days, so I didn't get to participate.
I'm leaving again tomorrow around midday for another adventure, but this one's not so secret. I am going camping. As in, pitch a tent and crawl into a sleeping bag. Not a big fan here, of camping. Maybe if I had some idea WHERE I was going, it'd be okay, but all I know is there will be a lot of fun things to drive and ride that will probably boost my broken bone count.
I asked if I should bring a shovel to dig a crapper. They say no, but I'm bringing one anyway.
DeeDee, that plane that crashed into your island was a Kamikaze plane. They see you as the ultimate Capitalist Pig and want to destroy you before you go and ruin the beautiful recession we've been treated to.
Morning Hooters.....well, I am home from the airport and MrD is gone for two weeks. I don't even have hardly any plans made and that is unusual for me. I hope something comes up to do especially over the holiday weekend.
CAROL: I hope things get better soon. I also thought Sal had a toe removed. I can totally relate to feeling down when your legs and feet aren't working like they need to but not with "giving up". It might be good for him to get on that walker and get back to work. Has he gotten worse physically? If I was there I at least could answer a phone for you and post blogs for you and pretend I was you.... SHIRLEY, has the right advice for you...eat healthy good food and wear that seatbelt!!
SHIRLEY AND EBJ: I can hardly wait to see what you are going to suggest in a blog that we buy. EBJ: I haven't watched Bachelor yet but will this week to get caught up. I just caught up on Idol for the finale tonight and I still need to catch up on Biggest Loser. I was happy with the finale on DWTS...how about all of you?
TINA: A whole week off...that will give you great bonding time with your MIL and again ....good advice from SHIRLEY. She is the advice giver today...
Guess I will try and come up with a couple of blogs while I am alone....I just can't think of any topics. Hey ZONA, isn't your time to write one again too?
MO: FROM AREA 51...I often have thought about people that are alone in a hospital or nursing home. It is hard enough for the ones that have family. Your cousin is very fortunate to have such a great family and have your daily visits. Your are a good cousin and a good friend to Joanne.
Tina. Are you still wearing the cap & gown from the 3 yrs you spent trying to get out of jr. High?
Carol, it was good to see you writing again. I feel bad for all the stress you have been under.
I am with Goldie, my younger brother who is still in a nursing home gave up too. All of his siblings including, me tried for years to get him to work harder and not give up. One of his social workers told us we were just adding to his problem and to back off. We did, he is still there, but is accepting of his condition and happy that we don't push him.
So many of our lives seem to parallel in many ways. All we can do is try to cope and "let go" kwim?
Dee Dee, are there any cannibals on your Island? I am wondering if that is what happened to LynnD?
Bonachi is off on another adventure!
Diane is home and Mr Diane is gone
Shirley has a mystery doo dad coming soon!
Goldie farts popcorn!
LynnD has been missing and may have been eaten by little people on DeeDee's Island!
Tina is in MIL heaven!
EBJ is all wet!
Happy Wednesday Owls.
Carol, I feel so badly for you that you are having all this stress. Please take care of yourself. I am still keeping you and your family and Sal in my prayers.
Tina, you will let someone else be the prettiest for a whole week? How generous of you.
Shirley, Can't wait to see the next "must have" product you found.
Lynn, need an update on the delivery guy. Was he a hunk?
EBJ, it rained all day yesterday and most of the night here too. I am worried. It is bad for the grape and that means, you know, bad wine or worse, no wine.
Dianne, I got home last night just in time to see the winner of DWTS announced. I really liked Nicole and Evan, so I was OK with either one winning.
Mo, (((HUGS))) and continuing prayers for you and Joanne too.
Hey Zona, You up yet?????
Waving a wing also to DeeDee, Goldie, Bonachichi, and all the other Owls.
EBJ....can't wait....I LOVE new products...
Shirley...yes....I have 2 cannibals on my islands....they are being filmed on the beach right now...they are women but don't be fooled....they both have teeth like a great white shark....they don't bother me....I think I understood them to say
Yo no estoy comiendo ese crap!
whatever that means.....
the info about the cannibal girls was for MARY!!
I got a little nervous thinking about them....sorry Mary....
Hi Everyone!
CAROL: I'm so sorry that you are going through this. I wish life would just calm down for you for a while so you could catch up. I will continue to pray that the strength you need to get through these trying times will be there when you need it. Please take care of yourself. I will also keep Sal in my prayers. I hope he feels better soon.
TINA: Pretty? Of course you are! So where are you going to hide..I mean where will you be going tonight.. ;)
DEEDEE: LMAO @ your avatar!! :D
DIANNE: Done. ;)
SACBARB: I stumbled out of bed..let Nikki out..and five minutes later she came running to the door covered head to toe in dirt and grass. I had to give her a bath and I'd only been up 10minutes..man that sun was bright..talk about waking up fast!! :D
BONACHI: When I read 'pitch a tent' I got another picture in my mind altogether!! ;) Have fun camping!
Waving HI to MARY, SHIRLEY, GOLDIE, EBJ and LYNN!!
DeeDee,tu carnita no esta bueno? Juan me deho "que buena!"
Hi Zona! Hi Barb!!
speaking of smart products...a couple of years ago....I bought a thing from an infomercial on TV....
Back then my friend Wanda Blevins used a lot of bobby pins in her hair....you know....like and old woman....if it stuck out or hung down she stuck a bobby pin in it...
Well they had this thing on TV that would replace the balls on your old bobby pins.....and all of hers were old and had no balls left....
it came in the mail and Wanda proceeded each day to repair a batch of her old bobby pins...there was this resin sort of stuff you put a drop of in this heated mold...laid the bobby pin tip in it and placed the top of the mold on that till it cooled.....
Well she used the first batch when it was ready and was pleased that the bobby pins mo longer brought blood when she rammed them in....she seemed well pleased....
well....a couple of weeks went by and it was time to take her hair down and shampoo it and redo it...the bobby pins wouldn't come out....it seems the resin had adhered itself to her hair...well we worked and worked with it and did get the bobby pins out but the little spots of resin remained...
I took her to a salon in the mall and upon inspecting her hair the stylist called the manager over and informed her that her hair was full of nits.....she tried to explain but they were not buying it. Every time I heard the word lice I backed a little further out the door until I was out of site......and I am glad I did because Wanda lost her temper and with all this long white hair sticking out all over her head began screaming that she did not have lice!! Well you know what that made it look like......uh-hm...lice!
Well needless to say she hasn't spoken to me since....and looking back I really don't care because I enjoyed learning that boby pins have balls and they wear away over time.....
And it hasn't affected my interest in trying new things....
Wanda is just crazy....
Mary....I don't know if my "meat" is good or not...I have never had a bite of myself...
ask Tina!! She has taken a bite out of my ass plenty of times.....
DeeDee, LOL! I didn't know she was a biter! She only fondled my boobs!
Apparently you all aren't doing the meat taste test properly.... Mary/MI seems to have it down. As in, have Juan "go down" and say good or bad. Since he says "good" he's probably going back for seconds, thirds, who knows how often?
Zona, I suck at camping. If I'm to survive this trip, surely it will cost some sexual favors. Hey! Maybe I should ask for more help than I really NEED!! How much fun would that be?? Thanks for the idea!
Good evening feathered friends!
CAROL...honey, I am so sorry for all you are going thru. Like the others said, if I lived there I would come and help you in a nanosecond. I hope SAL decides to fight back. Why can't he come in and sit at his desk? If he is just sitting at home, he can sit there. Maybe you should tell him not coming in isn't an option anymore. Maybe he feels he isn't even needed anymore. It might help him for you to call and ask him stuff and then ask...or tell...him to come back. {{{HUGS}}}
TINA...how fun...vacation with your MIL!! You lucky stinker, you!
SHIRLEY...tomorrow is your chance to swoop in for 1st!
DIANNE...I wasn't surprised at who won DWTS. But I think she had an unfair advantage. I really wanted the runner-up to have won. Have a fun 2 weeks! You can write LOTS of blogs!
MARY...como esta usted?
Mo, you must have had a "little Latin" in you! ;-)
Bonachi,I think Juan is having trouble getting back across the border cuz no carne(meat) for a looong time lol!
Hey!
SacBarb you are so right about the wine. I was selfishly glad for the rain as our water bills in the summer are huge.
Of course I do not want our wonderful grape crops to suffer.
I really wanted Evan to win on DWTS. I think Nicole is wonderful, but as a dancer she did have an advantage.
I also really liked Erin, but I can't stand Max. Each season he becomes more and more irritating, a huge ego and he is acting more like one of the "stars". Gotta always get his mug in there, take his shirt off, make a comment.
I imagine him with a very tiny penis. hee hee :)
Di, let me know what you thought of the Bachelorette. I think there is going to be a LOT of drama this season. I LOVE IT!
Hi Everyone..
Thanks all some much for your helpful comments..
btw.. loved AI tonite.. just who I wanted to win..
Sal went into the hospital to have his toe removed which he did. After this happen complications set it.. infection, retaining water, ademea. etc.. as this was happening he was not getting out of bed to move.. he just stayed dormant and relied on the drs, nurses to help him.. they put a diaper on him, then he only used the bed pan.. once he was feeling better his legs were stiff and unable to carry him.. sooooo instead of them making him move more, they just catered to him more.. He cannot walk without a walker, and he cannot drive.. His wound on his toe is healing, but its taking long.. and now he has bedsore.. which is being monitored, but it will take long to heal because of his diabetes...
He refuses to to anymore PT has he says he can't.. so he sits, and sits and sits..
I tried talking with him last week, but he wanted nothing to do with my conversation about anything.. So I blew my top, and spewed out nasty, hateful words.. we have not spoken since.. oh wait yes, he called cause he needed money for his meds.. I told him to get the meds, and I would pay the drugstore, but he never called back, so I am assuming he got the meds, and somehow came up with the money..
This will certainly be a long process.. not sure our business relationship will be the same..
For now.. I work like crazy, as I need to make a living.. and if he wants to give up so be it..
and I have to agree with Goldie..
I must allow him to if this is what he wants.. I have to let it go..
Mo..
How is your cousin?
Tina..
How is your hubby?
EBJ..
I am watching my guilty pleasure as well.. Ally from the Bachelorette.. and so funny.. if one more person used the word amazing.. I truly was going to punch the TV..
:O)
Oh Tina, I forgot..
Congratulations on your Graduation!!
Now what exactly did you graduate from?
Shirley..
I am living on chocolate, god knows I have a lot now.. and plenty of cawfee, but the good news.. is I eat in between..
:O)
Lynn..
Yes, I think depression is a part of it..
Mo..
I told him I needed him.. and I could not do it alone.. I told him to plz come back.. he never answered me..
:(
Dee..
Yellow smiles.. lol
Di..
He does not offer to come in.. I even told him I would pick him up..
nothing!
and thanks to everyone who offered to help me.. :O)
I have coverage for phones, banking etc.. what I need is someone to work Amadeus which is my airline system..
and all that applied for the job did not know Amadeus.. this might sound cruel.. but I am cannot train.. just don't have the time..
that last sentence made no sense at all.. and I am to tired to fix it..
I think you get the idea..
I was happy with who one on AI.. BUT.. the show was awful 2nite.. the singing was so off my everyone (except Lee) even Crystal sounded awful.. and Chicago.. I had to close my ears..
ok.. I am tired now.. off to bed..
see ya all tomorrow..
:O)
HA! that was 50!!!
EBJ, I think the Bachelorette is going to be one AMAZING show. :) I'm really glad she sent that 'Shooter' guy home. He was a little much. Already not crazy about Justin (the wrestler). Haven't formed an opinion on the others yet.
Nite sweet Carol!
I thought that was just me hearing all the bad notes! Even Carrie Underwood was off key.
I am heading to bed too. My sister is visiting tomorrow morning.
Good nite everyone!
I loved AI tonight. I was happy with who won but I really enjoyed the things for Simon and all the Idols. CAROL, I thought Chicago sounded bad too...Lee made them sound good. It was kind of depressing seeing how old all these groups have gotten...my age or older...I think older in a lot of cases or they just had a harder life than I have...probably more fun too!!
BEBBI: I looked at all the Galveston pictures you posted for me. Thanks for doing that. BTW...where has BEBBI been in the last two days? If she only knew she can get first in the next week....IF she can beat DEEDEE.
DEEDEE: How nice to hear about your old friend Wanda. Ah yes, I remember her well. I thought she just married and moved away...I didn't know you had a bobby pin fight to end that long friendship....sniff sniff
SACBARB: Haven't watched yet but my granddaughters like a guy on crutches. Guess the Colorado guy went packing the first night too. The kids said he was "creepy".
OMG! Wanda! I love Wanda! And thinking that perhaps she should team up with Helen Lawson's sidekick, socialite Pecky Cypress!
Carol, my heart goes out to you. This is just so difficult. Hugs!
Still, even though it was a blog about a very unpleasant topic, I had to smile, because it was so cpgem8-ish!
CAROL - Hang in there. I guess Sal's silence is speaking volumes. Maybe time to just let him go....:( Please take care of yourself. :O)
LYNN - Got the instructions and will try after work today. I think I finally have an afternoon to myself!! I hope you're feeling better ♥
TINA - shuddup?!!? well I never.....;)
I hope everyone has a great Thursday. Cawfee and Glazer donuts for everyone!!!
Yes I must say I left the Island. Contrary to some rumors cannibals did not eat me.
I spent days planting and planting and half the time someone would come and steal even the seeds I had planted. Then other people would send gifts that were a trick because I would get rebuffed when I tried to accept them.
One day I was spinning the roulette wheel and I got the mystery crate, when I opened the crate the only thing inside was a note that said, go to your tree house and watch for us, we will be there soon.
So I went to the tree house daily and waited and waited. One day I went to my storage to get food to make dinner and everything in my storage had been raided. Gone all of it. I ran to the tree house and cursed the very Island I lived on. Cried until I filled the ocean more.
The next day a big yacht came into view as it got closer and closer I did not know what to expect. Were these the no good rotten thieves?
No it was my mystery crate prize!
The yacht pulled along side my Island and two gorgeous men hailed me from the rail. Amazingly one looked like JBJ and the other George Clooney. They deny the resemblance but I think they are trying to cover. They swept me up and carried me away from that god forsaken place.
We stayed on the yacht for days and days we ate and ate and ate....they found I was so delightful and such a great dish that they moved me to a coastal farm with my own fantastic home and businesses. I am now a millionairess and my guys visit all the time.
Well I just got a call they are going to visit this evening. What should I fix for dinner? Must run out to one of my stores as I think we will need saran wrap and chocolate, plenty of chocolate......and we will eat and eat and eat.
I think Lynn D has island fever...she is hallucinating. I'll call Dr. Bombay.
Shirley I will have you know that according to my two big yacht guys,actually big is not a good descriptor, let's say Enormous. I have not lost anything at all! ;o)
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