Waiting

i am having writer's block, i have
always loved to write and when I
do the words just flow, which they should
i tried continuously to come up with a
blog for today other that the one you are about to
read, however i could not

i write what is on my mind, or how i am
feeling and the words are not strained

tonight i am thinking of my "aunt jo"
she is dying, a slow uncomfortable death
it is all i can think about, so i can't really
write about anything else, as the words
are just not there i can't force words
that i don't feel or mean

today hospice advised my cousin to
start making the funeral arrangements
she did what they advised her to do
and now she has everything
in place for the day we bury my aunt

we have to wait, watch and pray
that is comes quickly, i wish i could
be dr. kevorkian and just give her peace
as she is at war with her body,
her body is killing her, and she is trying
to stay alive, a constant struggle~~
death will win

i know every one of you have been thru
this, as i have before, watching death come
is the most brutal emotion one can go thru

that emotion is in full force

there was no possible way i could
have written anything other than
what you just read

there are no more words, as i have written
how i feel

i am just waiting, in limbo~~